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Everything is Illuminated

“They made for themselves a sanctuary from Trachimbrod, a habitat completely unlike the rest of the world. No hateful words were ever spoken, and no hands raised. More than that, no angry words were ever spoken, and nothing was denied. But more than that, no unloving words were ever spoken, and everything was held up as another small piece of proof that it can be this way, it doesn’t have to be that way; if there is no love in the world, we will make a new world, and we will give it heavy walls, and we will furnish it with soft red interiors, from the inside out, and give it a knocker that resonates like a diamond falling to a jeweler’s felt so that we should never hear it. Love me, because love doesn’t exist, and I have tried everything that does.”

What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what gets you out of bed in the mornings, what you do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything. Pedro Arrupe (via glassnightingale)

(via paintyhands)

Formula for Love (haven’t written a slam in a while)

Come HERE so that we can practice our craft TOGETHER butinseparaterooms
and then come together after to make each other food
while i continuously spoon-feed your ears “I love You’s,” 
and lament good news, and serendipitous coo’s, and “sorry(s) i was late but here’s my IOU’s”

And this is when it hits-
Pure Emotion-sunset-driven-bliss
i’d rather be with You;
full flushed cheeks and pure pressed lips.
Understood that True love
IS much more than tightly gripping hips
and the formula of lip plus lip equals kiss.


It’s hand plus hand equals understand
Over obligation
Times again and again
it’s open shades and minds ablaze
Your body plus my bedroom floor
Minus all of our clothes. 
and theatre books
and speaking in code
Times inside jokes
and kissing your nose.

i’m no mathematician 
i’m just grasping to petition 
some form of recognition
for lives in imperfect juxtaposition.

We are told to live life flawless-
but to me,
You must Make Faults to
Experience Life at it’s rawest. 

You understand this.

And Your closet mirror 
watching You strip
Equals my green eyes all envious.
Your hand Plus mine Plus toothpaste kiss
Plus read my mind 
Plus hard work bliss
Times spontaneous soul
And artistic wish
And earth-shaking-aspirations
Equal I LOVE 

THIS.

A Student Interviewed me for our production of WASP, (Steve Martin) that finished a couple of weeks ago. (I’ve pretty much been suffering from postpartum as i have just recently given BIRTH to this production. Ha). Please Enjoy

This semester you’re directing “WASP” by Steve Martin; how did this come about?

In order to direct a show through STA (Student Theatre Association), you must require a list of fulfillments from their given Director’s Application. The process includes picking three plays you would be interested in directing, analyzing them, what your vision of them would entail, which is your top preference, etc etc etc. There is also a ‘mock directing’ process so they can view how well you work with others, and an interview with the board. 

Did you choose this play? If so why?

WASP was my first choice. I am obsessed with Steve Martin (in a healthy way…)’s life; he is an exceptionally eclectic man. Everything he does he does well…and he does EVERYTHiNG. Banjo/bluegrass musician, novelist, playwright, actor, stand-up comic…i enjoy his writing most. I think all of his plays express important messages that reach out universally and speak loudly about the kind of societal pressures we face in our lives today.

When will the performance go onstage?

It went up February 24th-26th.

With out wanting to give the whole story away would you mind telling what the basis of the story is in WASP?

(you’re awesome haha) It’s about alienation. How when people are told to follow specific roles/lives, they lose themselves. They never truly find what they want and end up by living a life of seclusion from each other and essentially themselves. The 1950’s is a great archetypal example of what the picture-perfect nuclear family is suppose to look like. It shows how when people struggle to fit themselves into this unrealistic plastic-perfect mold, they crumble. They have titles that they are expected to live up to and if they do not they become vulnerable and their worlds shatter. In order to keep up such distinct, sheltered roles they must separate themselves from anything that could make them seem vulnerable; emotion, differences, true desires. fears, etc. The worse the life is the greater you must mask yourself into seeming happy and cheerful. When you cannot escape physically you must escape through imagination, and that is what these people must do. The American Dream is the American Nightmare.  All of these people are essentially living behind a mask (of who they are ‘suppose to be’) and have an incredibly immense yearning and longing for something more, beneath it.). 

Now I believe this is your first time directing is this true? If not how was your first directing experience?

This is my first time directing. My former experience is from the Directing I class I took last semester with Jack Shea, various acting classes, and some personal research (Bloom’s ‘Thinking Like A Director’). I’m currently enrolled in his Directing II class this Spring semester. 

How do you feel about this directing experience?

It was a wonderful learning experience and I consider myself very lucky to have had the opportunity to work with such a beautiful, motivated cast. 

Would you say your experience as an actress has helped you prepare to direct?  If yes than how so?

Yes. You have to be willing to be completely vulnerable and make mistakes in order to perfect any piece of art. Acting teaches you to do that. 

Learning things first from the perspective of the actor also helps you to understand the medium as a whole. It’s fun to be able to create an individual world for EVERY character (as opposed to just yours) and then incorporate it into the universe of the play that you create and that those actors help you create. 

Other than the obvious of being behind the scenes and not acting is there anything else that’s majorly different with directing than acting?  More or less stressful?  More or less time consuming?

Haha a lot more work…well….maybe not A LOT just a DIFFERENT type of work. You have to work around all of your actors’ schedules, you have to be willing to share the space you work in with other directors…it pretty much involves a lot more in the sense of organizational skills. As a director, you are also responsible for EVERYTHiNG that gets put on the stage. You say ‘Yes’ to everything and then it all becomes your responsibility, so you have an incredible duty to everyone involved AND the artwork to give your hardest performance each day and be extremely willing to try new things/create changes/be adaptable, etc. etc. That’s not to say acting isn’t hard work, it’s extremely difficult work…but like anything, if you want to do a Great Job you have to work your absolute hardest and keep a positive attitude always. 

How many people determine which course of action to take after justifying to themselves “I’m going to die someday.” 

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You Are what You Do.

You must find something to live for, not someone.

It is when and only when you are working hard towards all you stand for that you truly develop into your Identity. 

Following what you are and doing what you love makes you alive and A-LiFE.

With this hard work ethic, love, artistry, creativity, imagination, passion, you will find meaning in life and others who understand this and thus perpetually strive for improving self identity eventually find a way towards one another, leading to collaboration and a love that will improve the environment together.

check me out?

I don’t understand the process of imagination—though I know that I am very much at its mercy. I feel that these ideas are floating around in the air and they pick me to settle upon. The ideas come to me; I don’t produce them at will. They come to me in the course of a sort of controlled daydream, a directed reverie. It may have something to do with the disciplines of writing advertising copy (which I did for a number of years), where the limitations involved provide a considerable spur to the imagination. There’s an essay of T.S. Eliot’s…